[ naegi doesn't resist when daisuke pulls him into a hug but he doesn't do anything to return it. his arms stand limply to his sides and his hands are balled up into fists. he's tense as he tries to hold back his tears, even though he already failed to keep a few from falling, and he doesn't trust himself to speak without his voice cracking. he can only nod in response to daisuke. maybe he does... need to take some time for himself, even if it seems selfish to do so. he definitely doesn't think he can be around daisuke right now, at least not without his guilt eating him alive. ]
[ he stays silent for a few seconds after daisuke finishes talking, trying to gather his composure. he's a mess right now, feeling a wide range of emotions from the obvious guilt to embarrassment (he's the older one, how is he being the one comforted over a mistake he made?), but he manages to at least pull himself together just enough to talk a bit. ]
Daisuke thinks about this for a moment. It's still in the morning. He doubts anyone else would actually be awake or just sleeping in. He mindlessly rubs Naegi's back in the meantime. ]
Yeah... You can do that. But not right now. I'll go later.
[ He kinda wants to ask if he feels better, but he feels like some things aren't meant to be said right now. He'll stop hugging, but still stays close. ]
[ although daisuke's reassurance is welcoming and naegi wouldn't turn it down, it doesn't improve his mood that much. it's true what daisuke said, how words won't fix a situation that easily, and naegi believe that works both ways. daisuke's own words don't do that much to ease his guilt and although he apologized, naegi sure doesn't feel any better. he can apologize all he wants to daisuke and daisuke can forgive him but that doesn't necessarily mean that naegi forgives himself. ]
I... I'll go and buy some ice packs.
[ they might have a frozen pack of peas in the fridge but naegi wants to get him something better than that. maybe this is also an excuse to get out of the apartment right now? ]
Just-- Just let me know when you want to go.
[ and he'll call an uber from his phone, even if he's not around ]
[ he's glad that daisuke doesn't try to fight him on leaving but as he glances up for a split second and catches sight of the smile, his chest gets tighter and it aches. then with some hesitance, naegi tries to force on a smile as well but even with all the new things he's learned from this new au, such as being able to conceal his emotions better, the fakeness of his smile is blatantly apparent. his jaw is stiff and his eyebrows are furrowed but he holds onto the smile for a bit before he starts to head for the front door. ]
I'll be back soon.
[ and he'll be gone to fetch the ice packs and some painkillers before he bails for the rest of the day and night ]
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[ he stays silent for a few seconds after daisuke finishes talking, trying to gather his composure. he's a mess right now, feeling a wide range of emotions from the obvious guilt to embarrassment (he's the older one, how is he being the one comforted over a mistake he made?), but he manages to at least pull himself together just enough to talk a bit. ]
Let-- Let me call you an Uber. To the healer.
[ it's the least he can do ]
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Daisuke thinks about this for a moment. It's still in the morning. He doubts anyone else would actually be awake or just sleeping in. He mindlessly rubs Naegi's back in the meantime. ]
Yeah... You can do that. But not right now. I'll go later.
[ He kinda wants to ask if he feels better, but he feels like some things aren't meant to be said right now. He'll stop hugging, but still stays close. ]
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I... I'll go and buy some ice packs.
[ they might have a frozen pack of peas in the fridge but naegi wants to get him something better than that. maybe this is also an excuse to get out of the apartment right now? ]
Just-- Just let me know when you want to go.
[ and he'll call an uber from his phone, even if he's not around ]
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That would really help. Thanks. I'll text you if I need anything more.
[ Here's a smile for Naegi. That actually brought the pain back, but fuck it, man. HE NEEDS TO SMILE.
In the meantime, he'll figure out how to revert back to his old appearance. ]
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I'll be back soon.
[ and he'll be gone to fetch the ice packs and some painkillers before he bails for the rest of the day and night ]