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[ and this is when naegi drops the broom and it clatters on the floor. he immediately runs up to daisuke, his hands hovering but not sure where to put them. an intense amount of guilt overflows him ]

Oh my god-- Daisuke, I'm so sorry! I really am! I-Is your jaw okay?!

Edited (THANKS HTML) 2018-07-02 23:15 (UTC)

[ this is so sad alexa play despacito

In which Wiz scampers off and comes back, dragging Daisuke's phone. He does a quick search of his symptoms and other than the usual memetic "YOU'RE DYING" aside, it definitely points to a broken jaw. He exits the browser and writes a blank text to show Naegi. ]

"looks like i got a broken jaw

but its okay

i didnt have the time to tell you"

[ He tries to smile, but it hurts too much. So he'll pass on that. ]

"i didnt know you could punch so hard..."

[ a... a broken jaw... naegi was hoping that maybe it would just be a nasty bruise or daisuke cut his tongue but this... this is really bad and the absolutely heartbroken feeling he has is apparent over his face. ]

I--

[ he opens his mouth and then he closes it. he can't find anything to say asides from wanting to constantly apologize and fix this ]

L... L-Let's get you to a hospital. I'll call an Uber!

[ That's not good. You know, despite the pain, Daisuke keeps a certain levelheadedness. There's something about this situation that feels unreal, to be honest. It helps him distance himself and numb the pain in his mind... somehow.

But he shakes his head and types into his phone more. ]

"i dont really want to go into debt from hospital bills. besides, i can ask someone to heal it for me for free. i dont want you to gamble more than you have to..."

[ the guilt's rising and rising and his heart's racing a hundred beats per minute. he has a thousand thoughts going through his head and his face is getting red ]

N-No, I don't mind! It's fine, just put the bills under my name! I'll cover it since it's my fault! It-- It's the least I can do!

[ he's rambling, he knows it, but it's bad. he feels like exploding ]

[ He has never seen Naegi so mad before. The only time when he's seen his face go red was when he was embarrassed. It alarms him a bit, but his parents taught him better.

Sort of.

He'll let his hand down from his own face and lets the phone down on the floor. With a deep breath, he spreads his hands open wide and gently slaps both of Naegi's cheeks. Now Naegi's head is sandwiched between his hands. ]

I'm fine, Makoto. Calm down. It's not your fault. It actually doesn't hurt anymore. I'm tougher than you give me credit for, okay? But thanks... I always appreciate what you do for me.

[ throughout this entire time, naegi wasn't able to look daisuke in the eye. the guilt and shame prevented him from being able to keep his head up so when he's lightly smacked, he doesn't see it coming and he flinches in surprise. this is the first time he looks up at daisuke since he said he suggested for them to go to the hospital and he looks at him until daisuke finishes but then... ]

I--

[ ... he looks back down and closes his mouth, swallowing over a lump in his throat. the edge of his eyes sting and he bites down on his lip to prevent any tears from falling. he feels like he'll fail though so he lowers his head so his face can't be seen ]

I--I'm really sorry, Daisuke. I truly am...

[ he's not going to make excuses because he knows he messed up here. this is his fault and he knows it ]

[ When Naegi lowers his head, Daisuke sees something drop from his face. His expression falters, and he lets his hands go from Naegi's face and gives him a hug instead. ]

I know you are... I know.

[ He pats Naegi's back lightly several times. The pain just feels numb with a dull stinging, but he'll live. ]

I, forgive you. Okay? Though I know you'll probably want some time to yourself, since words like these can't fix the situation that easily.

[ He knoooows. And it sucks. But he tries his best anyway. ]

You're still the best big brother anyone can ask for, okay? Everyone makes mistakes.

[ naegi doesn't resist when daisuke pulls him into a hug but he doesn't do anything to return it. his arms stand limply to his sides and his hands are balled up into fists. he's tense as he tries to hold back his tears, even though he already failed to keep a few from falling, and he doesn't trust himself to speak without his voice cracking. he can only nod in response to daisuke. maybe he does... need to take some time for himself, even if it seems selfish to do so. he definitely doesn't think he can be around daisuke right now, at least not without his guilt eating him alive. ]

[ he stays silent for a few seconds after daisuke finishes talking, trying to gather his composure. he's a mess right now, feeling a wide range of emotions from the obvious guilt to embarrassment (he's the older one, how is he being the one comforted over a mistake he made?), but he manages to at least pull himself together just enough to talk a bit. ]

Let-- Let me call you an Uber. To the healer.

[ it's the least he can do ]

[ ...

Daisuke thinks about this for a moment. It's still in the morning. He doubts anyone else would actually be awake or just sleeping in. He mindlessly rubs Naegi's back in the meantime. ]

Yeah... You can do that. But not right now. I'll go later.

[ He kinda wants to ask if he feels better, but he feels like some things aren't meant to be said right now. He'll stop hugging, but still stays close. ]

Edited 2018-07-03 01:53 (UTC)

[ although daisuke's reassurance is welcoming and naegi wouldn't turn it down, it doesn't improve his mood that much. it's true what daisuke said, how words won't fix a situation that easily, and naegi believe that works both ways. daisuke's own words don't do that much to ease his guilt and although he apologized, naegi sure doesn't feel any better. he can apologize all he wants to daisuke and daisuke can forgive him but that doesn't necessarily mean that naegi forgives himself. ]

I... I'll go and buy some ice packs.

[ they might have a frozen pack of peas in the fridge but naegi wants to get him something better than that. maybe this is also an excuse to get out of the apartment right now? ]

Just-- Just let me know when you want to go.

[ and he'll call an uber from his phone, even if he's not around ]

[ Daisuke recognizes the cue and nods. Sometimes it's better to let people go when they're suffering because they need space for themselves! ]

That would really help. Thanks. I'll text you if I need anything more.

[ Here's a smile for Naegi. That actually brought the pain back, but fuck it, man. HE NEEDS TO SMILE.

In the meantime, he'll figure out how to revert back to his old appearance. ]

[ he's glad that daisuke doesn't try to fight him on leaving but as he glances up for a split second and catches sight of the smile, his chest gets tighter and it aches. then with some hesitance, naegi tries to force on a smile as well but even with all the new things he's learned from this new au, such as being able to conceal his emotions better, the fakeness of his smile is blatantly apparent. his jaw is stiff and his eyebrows are furrowed but he holds onto the smile for a bit before he starts to head for the front door. ]

I'll be back soon.

[ and he'll be gone to fetch the ice packs and some painkillers before he bails for the rest of the day and night ]

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